Icebox Radio Theater

News, events and doings surrounding the Icebox Radio Theater of International Falls, Minnesota.

Sunday, June 22, 2008

Much cookin’ these days, and my desire to blog continues to grow even if my time to blog doesn’t. We’re rehearsing The CONvergence show currently, and after a slow start, I think it’s going well. I didn’t really take control of things to begin with, and in hindsight, that was a mistake. Once I got organized and thought through each rehearsal, things improved. I think actors resent lack of leadership. My fault, no one elses. I play things loose sometimes in hope someone else will take the lead, relieve some of the pressure on me. The more we do these shows, the more obvious it becomes that no one will be coming alongside to help build the theater with me. I’ve been doing this for four years, and several people have offered. But I don’t know how to delegate things (mostly due to the fact that I’m making most of it up as I go) and no one else is willing to dive in and get messy. And even with clear instructions, I don’t always trust people, especially in I-Falls. Our culture here is very enabling, very indulgent. People can fail to follow-through on promises without any real repercussions. That makes it tough to rely on others. Besides, don't you think that after four years, someone would have stepped forward by now?

Mostly, it’s my own shortcomings that vex me. I have a fear of success, or at least it seems that way. A little good stuff comes my way, and I slip into a foul mood. This should be one of the best months of my life professionally, and all I can see are problems. Writing this clears my head, however. I think the show will come together well. As to the future of the theater, that’s to God, I guess. I don’t think I can do better than that.


  • At 2:59 PM, Blogger Oma G said…

    Jeff, I appreciated your comments. If I work with something and I see it needs leadership, I tend to step up to the plate and then I can't get it passed on. But when we moved from Olympia to Sedro Woolley, I obviously had to let go of a lot of things, including, for example the reading group I led and had tried to get more people to take leadership roles. I thought it would die when I left, but it has continued. As you say it has to be in God's hands whether it's a big, wonderful thing like Icebox Radio Theatre or just a reading group and all these things do have a life span. So it may pass on to other hands when you need to let go or it may be that it was a light in the community for a certain period of time. Enjoy that it's something you are called to do at this point in time and especially enjoy your time of success as you head off to Convergence. We are very excited for you and for your family and look forward to hearing all kinds of good stories. Bless you!


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