Podcast Milestone!

We passed a milestone today as podcast downloads for the month of June went past 1,000. To put this in perspective, our total downloads dating back to October is about 3,100. I give a lot of credit to the increased archive space meaning a new listener now has six or seven shows to download instead of just two or three.

One more note, keep watching this space this week as I'll be attempting to update the blog while at CONvergence. We'll be doing live shows on Friday and Saturday at 1pm, so (provided I can find internet) and I'll bring you up to date those evenings - maybe with pictures!

Jeff

Man, I'm so pathetic...

Podcast listeners for the IBRT just passed 3,000 for the year, and the numbers for June just passed May. This makes me smile. I might even make 1,000 this month. This is very bittersweet for me because it says a lot about how far we've come, and a lot about how far we have to go.

Rehearsal yesterday was abbreviated by schedule conflicts (again!) Thursday's should be nearly full excepting one actor who I already knew wouldn't be there. We have ten hours rehearsal left before next Friday. It could come together, it's not a sure thing. If I could just get everyone in the room at the same time...

Much cookin’ these days, and my desire to blog continues to grow even if my time to blog doesn’t. We’re rehearsing The CONvergence show currently, and after a slow start, I think it’s going well. I didn’t really take control of things to begin with, and in hindsight, that was a mistake. Once I got organized and thought through each rehearsal, things improved. I think actors resent lack of leadership. My fault, no one elses. I play things loose sometimes in hope someone else will take the lead, relieve some of the pressure on me. The more we do these shows, the more obvious it becomes that no one will be coming alongside to help build the theater with me. I’ve been doing this for four years, and several people have offered. But I don’t know how to delegate things (mostly due to the fact that I’m making most of it up as I go) and no one else is willing to dive in and get messy. And even with clear instructions, I don’t always trust people, especially in I-Falls. Our culture here is very enabling, very indulgent. People can fail to follow-through on promises without any real repercussions. That makes it tough to rely on others. Besides, don't you think that after four years, someone would have stepped forward by now?

Mostly, it’s my own shortcomings that vex me. I have a fear of success, or at least it seems that way. A little good stuff comes my way, and I slip into a foul mood. This should be one of the best months of my life professionally, and all I can see are problems. Writing this clears my head, however. I think the show will come together well. As to the future of the theater, that’s to God, I guess. I don’t think I can do better than that.